The Door, I wrote about in my first posting.

Fourth

So its Friday! That's probably the one thing I can get excited about every time I say it, all though I said six days ago and I was just as excited. Something about being able to be lazy the next day, well depending on your plans I have to wake up at 6am tomorrow (sad face). I am not complaining because even though its early I can say that its a day off from work. I don't know about any of you out there, but lately just going to work has been a chore. I am very glad to have a job. However sometimes I have to remind myself that this is not forever so just go and you'll see it will be worth it in the end. I am also very blessed to be working with some great people. Its funny how much time you actually spend with Co-workers. If you were a math wiz and wanted to see how much time you spend with co-workers I'm sure you would be surprised at the amount of time it ended up being. Another thing is you can go years working with people and never really truly know them. I keep reading about these people who lose their job and days later come back only to seek revenge. Lives have been lost because of this. We don't really know or take the time to get to know people we work side by side everyday. Please don't think I am saying we are at fault because people lose it and do terrible things. What I am saying is that maybe we could have seen some sign or been more aware of this impending doom and instead of saying I never thought this would happen or well that person was kinda quiet and kept to themselves or was a bit of a loner. We can say I tried several time to converse or invite them to lunch. I don't know maybe that's not what we should do either. If that's the case then I wonder if its that easy to go through life living in the same house and having children with someone and still not know them either. That seems like a waste right? I would feel like I spent my life with someone who didn't care to figure me out or get know me. There would be a void in my heart.

On another note. I have a a song playing in the back ground It's Big Jet Plane. I love songs that are so simple but yet speak volumes. I am eating an Apple and thinking about this weekend. I want to be outside for sure. So a few friends have requested we go to the city. I am in agreement. So maybe you have plans for this weekend maybe you don't. My unmentionable sent me an email this week and this phrase was included in it. When you stop chasing the wrong things, you give the right things the chance to catch up. I'm pretty sure that was on Pinterest. I'll  leave you with this. Whatever you do, Do it with all thine might.  Me

Third

This is a really nice day out, Of course I am not out I'm in the office and I only now it's nice out because I stepped out for lunch.  I am writing today and I must admit I have no topic, few things on my mind and I can go through and just kinda summarize which seems like a good Idea, so first on my mind is this Black and white party I am hosting Friday, Its for a close friend and her brother, we have been planning it for about 2 months and I've already sent out the evite. Plus getting together for random meet ups with different people in the know, for ideas of games and fun stuff like that. My only fear is to take it to far. Like I am not wanting it to be perfect but at least go according to plan and what if her family member decides to take control. I'm not to new to hosting parties, but this is a new crowd so anything is possible. Shoot me now!! 

Next would be relationships. I think mentioned there might be someone... Well he is not giving me any signals. We have been talking for like 2 months and I have been very clear with him. Meaning I am very nice. I know being nice is not a sign since everyone should be nice (I can hear my Tia saying this to her daughter) but I don't mean that kind I mean girly/flirty/talk I am listening nice. You see I don't give my time to guys who are not worth it. I cant even think of accepting an invitation to eat with someone who I do not enjoy talking to. I am not rude no but lets just say I have not given my number out to often. So here I am really trying to be available with this guy and he just doesn't seem to be wanting to do more then chat every now and then. Also he keeps mentioning another someone. Aaaah! so I am standing my ground and I will remain nice and keep him on my good list ha. He is supposed to be in attendance at this party so I hope to make some head way. (Happy) However that other someone will be in attendance as well. (I want to hide under a big fluffy blanket). Wish me luck.

Second

Hey there,
I am just taking a minute out of my day to write. I have been thinking about this a lot so I am going to share. Long term goals, this has been on my mind more and more lately and non to soon I might add this morning while doing my hair for work I found a grey hair, On my head!!! I swear to god. I was so shocked I think I said Oh My GOD like 12 times and I was like just standing there for  forever it seemed and all of a sudden I just begin to freak out. Now I have had this elephant sitting on my chest since yesterday morning ( but that's a whole other topic). I think the elephant just kinda laid done on my chest and I was like I'm only 28 years old this is NOT fair I know that we are not supposed to let it get to us and we are supposed to age with this grace that apparently only we have. However I didn't feel to graceful as I screamed. I am not even Married yet! ha ha and that brings me back to my original topic. I am a huge fan of wedding blogs. Snippet and Ink and the Martha Stewart site. I can look and read about weddings all day. Some make me cry some make me laugh. I dream about my day and how it will go. Will we have a traditional wedding or a me wedding? ha! and don't get me started on the dress or if he can see me before the actual ceremony. I have all these visions and I'm very excited these days. I couldn't even say because I think he's going to pop the question. He? There is no he. I know that's super sad and kinda heard to believe however its a fact. I have great guy friends and that's not a problem I just don't even have a bf. What a funny post this is. I hope this doesn't turn into like a dairy I never thought I would keep. I was in this beauty supply store over the weekend and I seen the magazine The Knot and I began to flip through the pages and they had some amazing gowns in there. I honestly liked them. So I have a few Ideas of the dress I want and yes I will have sleeves. Life is flying by me at warp speed all of a sudden. Which is why I wanted to take a break and just let you know that no matter where you are in life right now your not alone and I officially have grey in my hair. I am typing so hard right now my coworkers giving me looks :) So sit up and smile for me and you.  Oh and there might be someone... maybe. Talk to you soon.

First

Not to brag but, this is going to be the most fun I have ever had.  I am supposed to be taking a test right now but the system is down. (don't ya hate when that happens) I always dream (side note I am a HUGE dreamer) sorry back to what I was saying. I have had this recurring dream that I have a blog and so I thought since I am just sitting here waiting for an email to come in, what better thing to do then make a dream come true.(check that off my list of to do's. Make a dream come true today check) I love how that works. I am done with the dishes. I know I know I am pretty down to earth right? I should be at the gym... I know that means I'm also lazy but just for tonight. I think that I deserve it. It been a long summer and now I'm ready to start something new and fresh. Something out of the ordinary and just go with it. The last time I did that was, well last Thursday actually. Kinda sooner then I thought. (hhm maybe I should think this through a bit more) well what I did was I was missing a certain someone (who shall remain unnamed until I get permission, this is So fun) and I knew that we have both been kinda feeling down about this home we are in at the moment, so I went with this sudden feeling of boldness and I painted the front door of our little casita. (I'm smiling right now) the color I used is a color that we are in LOVE with at the moment. I was a bit apprehensive at first and then I was super excited and then I was freaking out because I was struck with this thought. "what if my unmentionable hates it"! (I'm crying now), Sheesh I go from one extreme to the next. well needless to say. It was a hit! not like "Oooh lets never change it' but like "I don't hate it" type of a hit. I need to say I am NOT a creative soul, nor do I claim to be. I just simply do what I want and if I need to I call my sister over I will and she does it for me like a pro. (Luv her!). So here is my start of something don't know what yet but I'm super excited