Tenth

Hey hey,
How are you?? Its been forever and a day. I have been thinking about you and wanting to come spend some time with you but just have not made the time. (Due to the lack there of). I have a new full time job and I am so exhausted by the end of the day mentally that I cant think any more. Hopefully when the car situation here at my house gets sorted then I can maybe get to the gym during the week and get my body back into shape. This somehow will help me get back into some sort of a routine I suppose and then I will choose a night once a week where I will write. Wow that sounds very thought out, and to think I thought of it just now lol. The weather is really turning into "hi lets stay outside and never return inside again". Maybe I'll go for a bike ride or two. I am lucky to have no windows at my job where I sit. I say lucky because I can be somewhat of a daydreamer and If  I could see how beautiful it is while I attempt to work I might not get that much done.Dreaming of the warmth of the sun and how it would feel on my face if I were to be sitting outside in my back yard. I can hear my niece saying Tia blow more bubbles please. Sigh enough of that. So what I did is I bought myself a plant to keep me somewhat sane and I'll share a picture her. I sit her in the hall over the weekends as she enjoys the indirect sunlight from the sky lights.
 

 

Here is Miss Pretty

Also I put some lifts under my screens at work not a dramatic lift but it was enough to give my neck somewhat of a relief. here I'll show you them as well.

These are the books I had taken out from under the screen

I put these under my right screen and

These under the left screen.

I feel much better and they look fun. I had second thoughts that someone might say something about them not being about work. However if you go into our break room or our Lobby you will see stacks and stacks of these good reads. So I think I'm safe.
I am at work so much that Its very important to me that my desk be visually appealing, not sure why I just go with it and I am happy =)

I painted my dresser as well, I don't know if this is TMI but I have not had a dresser for about 10 years at the least. Seriously I just didn't have one. I had like 4 baskets and then there was 6 and I began to think I should look for a dresser. I really liked the Mirrored dressers and then I started seeing them everywhere and I was not so enthusiastic about paying that price. While blog surfing I found this dresser that I could not take my eyes off of. I immediately sent my sister (the artistic one in my fam) a link and asked her if we could do this to my dresser  would buy. Please please please. Keep in mind that I still had not found one. Well months past and I had looked and just never could see what I wanted in any of the options at any local Goodwill or thrift shops. One day I came home to find on my front porch a dresser. My mom bless her soul said "Mija look it was free" My mom does this very often and I have many things she has given me over the years that all though they are cool (The white fluffy rug now grey from all the little feet the pass over it daily) Fun (the Upright piano I barley could fit in my tiny room when I was living with my prima) she was so proud to have gotten it for "Free mija". Its currently siting in her garage as I will not move it into our new place. I wont!! I really could go on and on. However back to my surprise on my porch. I am not a unappreciative daughter/person. So I looked at the dresser and scratched my head. I looked at my little niece and I asked her "What color is that baby?" and she correctly answered "It's Green, I think" then she giggled and ran inside to tell her mom I have a funny face. First off it was definitely doing something and that's the first step to wining my heart. It doesn't matter if were talking about a piece of clothing, a couch, a shower curtain, a church, a country, a song or a new guy in the office, as long as its doing something I'm interested. So I thought maybe a coat of paint might bring this dresser to this century. I had to really think tho because it was going to be in my room. I remembered the picture of the dresser I sent to my sisley way back when and the wheels in my head started turning. I will spare you all the conversations I had with her about colors and such. I'll just show you what it looked like doing and then the finished project.This is after I covered it with two cans of cream spray paint

  I just used spray paint and a clear coat and that was that. No it didn't come out perfect, but that's the second thing you need to win my heart. A unique style of imperfections that make you even more beautiful then ever. I will add a pic of the finished project in just a few, and No I don't have a before picture because I don't think that's important. That is the  past and it has no weight on my decision that I love it how it is now =)

Thanks mom for not changing how you do.

I'll be back soon and we can chat again. Have a lovely day!
Mela

Ninth

So here I am sitting down to write. I don't know if I said this in any of my past post but I usually just write what is on my mind when I sit down. It's been so terribly long since I wrote I have a list in my head of topics. oh first I want to show you whats on my desk

The See's is a gift for my birthday that passed recently. (Another topic I need to cover in this post. Also Mouse pad is from Freshly Picked and the Wire rack (Which was silver before I sprayed it gold) along with the Sticky dispenser are from Office max. Just wanted to share it with you =)

Yes I had my 29th Birthday recently and there was many parties, cake and  gifts plus I have so many memories that I will keep with me forever. I must share that I no longer look forward to my birthday with the same eagerness and excitement. Now I wake up the day of my birthday and dread looking in the mirror as i might find more wrinkles or yet another gray hair (CAN YOU BELIEVE IT!!). Well one thing I did that I am proud of and that's I took pictures. Now if your like me you where raised in a home were we rarely took pictures as a family and we did not even own a camera. So apart from the school pictures or the ones from the random disposal cameras that we bought when we were headed to a spare the moment road trip to the ocean, Magic Mountain or something like that. Now how this came about is my Prima, Oops I mean my unmentionable person whom I will refer to as U P from now on. Anyways  I used to live with her as mentioned previously has quit a few hobbies and one is photography, and for my birthday she and one of her photographer friends whom I don't have the permission to name either went out and spent the day looking at me through the lens of their cameras. I would post some pictures however i am a bit shy. Thats why I am so proud as I wouldn't do something like this originally however I decide to try something new and it was a bit awkward as I didn't know what to do with my face, hands, cheeks and so needles to say I was so happy it was my U P shooting me.I highly suggest doing this if you never have. it was a nice experience all and all. I'll share one.

I do need to log off now. and Ive only covered a few topics on my list. I will be back soon I promise.

Thanks for reading
Mela

My Practical Niece

Eighth Happy Holiday's!

It's Christmas day. I am so excited, I love the whole togetherness time with Family and friends. I hope yours is going well and whatever your traditions are you enjoying them this year. We made Tamales, Rice crispy treats snicker doodles  and played games. I just realized I only press the space bar with my right thumb lol. I am using my moms computer and her space bar makes a huge racket every time you press it I tried to use my left hand after I type with my left hand and that didn't work lol then I tried every other word and boy it was taking forever to figure out what thumb went last lol. So I am back to right thumb only =) Sorry for all the "lols". Anyways. I have a few moments to catch you up on the latest and greatest in my life.


The first thing I would like to let you know is that I have been to quit a few little shindigs for Christmas. Met some cool new people and had some new food as well. I love hanging out and seeing all the new shoes and cool outfits people wear in the winter, Some you can tell are not so comfortable. I played so many games recently and I think I'm a pro too. Many laughs and of unbelievable moments where you can swear that someone is cheating, Because there is no way No stink'n way he had the whole run of 9 and was able to go out when you had not even had your turn. (Not fair!). Many new relationships have sprung up and I am excited to see what happens this next year. I will be turning 29 this next year and I am hopping to have something fresh and fun to tell you by then. I really don't know what but it will be those two things Fresh and Fun.

The weather outside is frightful and its perfect.I love it to be all raining and grey.We have not started a fire in the house as the little ones are to young to know better and we don't want to chance it.I just came back from a weekend in the snow.It was magical. I really was in awe at how the snow just blanketed everything. I'ts been awhile since I have been in the snow so I was like the true California girl my eyes wide and blinking  saying "Oh Wow its so beautiful and utterly cold". Me and a few of  my primas hung out in the cabin, at Kmart and several local food joints. We did hit up the slopes just not as hard core as you might think lol. FYI: I am not the Sporty one.

As I type this I can hear the rain falling on the top of my parents house.Its a nice feeling. I was recently laid off my job and I am searching for a new job.I am keeping my spirits up and not being to picky about where I apply too.It's not an easy feeling when you know someone is depending on you however I depend on God so it makes it a little more bearable.We have to believe in something to have Hope,, With all this out of control emotions and situations we as a World are facing. Hope is what helps to wake in the morning and try it again.

Last little thing on my mind.I wanted to tell you a fun story. I attend the gym  about 3 times a week sometimes 4 depends on what I have going on. My classes of interest are spinning and Yoga. I used to attend Zumba but the class is held an hour later and its ridiculously full. So I have been faithfully busting my butt in yoga. I am not a bendy person but my instructor told me that "its not that you're not good at, it its that you're body needs to began to grow in the Journeys you take each class". I'm hecka smiling right now because that's exactly what she said to me word for word. BTW she is amaaaazing! So anyways back to my story. There's this guy that works at the gym, extremely intelligent looking and handsome as ever and every time I come in he has a towel ready for me  and says "have a good work out". I know I know he does that for every one but I just get a little flutter in my belly when he says that to me. So anywho I was at the local Grocery store yesterday around 5pm trying to get my last shopping done, and guess who works there... I was like wait is that Mr. Gym Guy. Gasp it is! Well I hurried up and grabbed everything I needed and rushed to get in his line. I couldn't believe it he was wearing the cutest Christmas sweater ever! It was clay blue with Tan Snow flakes on it. I was a little preoccupied with my niece but I said Hi (When it was my turn) and asked him if he works at the gym as well he said yes, and you go to spinning class right? Ooooh my word he remembers me! I answered a sweet demurely yes, even tho I wasn't sure he heard over the weddings bells going off in my head lol. I said bye and wished him a Merry Christmas as he shouted over the intercom for someone to come help me out to my car. That little flutter back in my belly was going crazy as I walked out in the light misty rain searching frantically for my keys.( I don't know why I cant put them in the same pocket of my purse). I went over our conversation as I waited for my car defroster to clear my windshield. In the backseat my niece was going on and on about  how come the guy who helped us to our car had told her to go to sleep so Santa would bring her gifts. I had asked if he quit working at the gym and he said No, the he has 2 jobs and that the gym was his part time. Also he wasn't done Christmas shopping. Poor guy he was super busy. (Did that mean he has a girl to shop for or a big Familia?)  I would have to wait and see wouldn't I.   "Tia Cece Santa can not come in our house.We don't like strangers" I reminded Milly that no Santa was not coming and that yes she can open her presents in the morning. She is a very practical one. Love her to pieces. So there's my little tale of how I found some Christmas cheer and I hope it last until I see him again. I wonder what put a smile on your face this Christmas.

I will write again soon and I wish you all a Merry Christmas and a very Happy New Year!!

Mela

Seventh

Love

Here is where my heads at today. I have been taking into consideration that sometimes you may have to make your own fairytale come true. I am not really a Pessimist however I have felt the light dim in my eyes over the years when it comes to the topic Love. To many times I have been the witness to betrayal, lies and bad choices made ending Marriages in breakups, one night stands and cold very cold marriages when they choose not to separate for whatever reasons. Since I can remember I  have had a dream in my head that I'm worried is fading, You know how after waking in the morning or from a nice nap you realize you dreamed (I rarely do) so you try to recall and all you have are bits and pieces. I want hurry and find someone who will help make that dream come true before I can not remember the dream any more and just get married because he's good looking or because I'm tired of being alone. Here's the question, Is it okay to fall for someone and not be attracted to him. I mean really not feel anything inside when you look at him. It's when you started talking and was able to witness first hand what he was passionate about and witnessed a transformation in him that caused a "hhm" in your little time together.  I ONLY ask because I have this feeling that I would die if I knew my husband did not find me beautiful. Is that weird? I really have a lot of insecurities and knowing that they're might be 10 girls in the restaurant that he finds prettier then me would be oh so sad. So would it be wrong to start a relationship where you fear you would be doing the same thing to him?  Is it true that with time you will come to be attracted and fall in love??? or is it always like this and you get over it and just live life with someone who completes you in every way he just doesn't look like Ryan Gosling. That last part was for fun lol.

I'll write again soon. Thanksgiving is next week. Yikes! also it's someone's very specials birthday. I wonder what I shall get them? Maybe a nice pair of boots or a purse. =) we shall see... I love shopping for this person so it will be a pleasure.

maybe I should write about my new place... Next time. Until then thank you for stopping by and reading. Love
mela

Sixth

I see you,
Its been a few eventful weeks. I am moving today and I wont be moving with my unmentionable =( extremely sad about that. Also I have been following Hurricane Sandy the past few days and I am so shocked as I know a lot of people are. Such a massive lost, setback and unbelievable tragedy. I am not sure anyone  foreseen this  happening before the end of 2012. We are days away from election and this hurricane is going to be a very huge impact on everything. My prayers are with everyone who has been affected by Hurricane Sandy. I will write again soon. Hug

5th

Autumn
Hot Coco in the evening and warm sunny afternoons. Just perfect. I had a melancholy occasion when I seen a couple standing in the line at my local Wal mart in work out gear buying 22 cans of Tuna and some light mayo. When am I going to be in that situation? Deep breath in and breathe all that black bile out. Not needed in my little heart. Aaaah! much better. I seen some boots that's exactly what I need. I should be saving up for new working out shoes. However I have visited many different sports stores and tried on various different tennis shoes. I just can not see paying that much money for such an ugly shoe. I am the girl who would rather be barefoot then put on tennis shoes. I own a wonderful collection of heels. I do not go in debt or anything but I love heels and the thought of spending money on tennis shoes makes me think that my 3 year old, once upon a time white sneakers are not that bad (never mind that I have begun to take them off outside after the gym because I suspect a funny smell when they are in the house just after my work out). Sheesh! Maybe I should take up yoga. They always take off their shoes. Oh whats a girl supposed to do? I'm reading up on Barre3 that looks promising. Anyways It's grey and a bit cold out all of a sudden. I hope your weekend is full of sweaters and warm memories as we head into our Autumn season. Thanks for reading